Just another week

So this last week has been one for the record books. Really it has been everywhere. And I have to much on my plate. STRESSSSSSS!

But I have been spending a lot of time with Jordan, and that has been wonderful I feel like we are best friends and really comfortable together. I like being able to just laugh and play fight with him. It makes all the serious things about relationships seem less important. And I also feel like he is going to be around for awhile, which also makes some of the stress go away. And he really wants to work on his relationship with my parents, and is also making me work on my relationship with them as well.

My parents have not been happy with me and within the last couple of days things seem to be taking a turn to the worst when it comes with them. I have never in my almost 19 years of living felt close enough to them to actually talk to them. Most days we spend out time in different sections of the house trying not to run in to each other, and on the occasions when we do we have a brief chit chat and we go about our days. It also doesn't help that they think that I am a crazed drug addict. I have just recently discovered this to, they have told the rest of my family that I have been strung out on pills and now my uncle doesn't like the fact I talk to my cousin who has been the closest person to me in my family since I was born.

I don't understand family anymore. at one point in time I could have talked to any of them now it seems that when I am at a family event they all keep me at and arms length away. And for the record I am NOT a strung out druggie. I have had so many things going on in the last couple of months I don't get any help from the family I am financially supporting myself I work over thirty hours a week and have to manage a store twenty four seven because no one else will do it and I have been there the longest, and I have school from 8-2.20, and it's senior year and I feel like I'm losing control over everything. And I feel like I am about to break. The only thing that is keeping me sane right now are the friends. And of course Jordan, they are my get aways from the world around me.

Random fact of the day!: Garden Gnomes make me smile!

Love and Happiness

-Chel