Silly green lighter

I have been thinking about a whole buch of things lately. The main thaing is being in love.

I can honestly say as of right now I don't believe in it. I mean what is love? What is the differance between being in love and loving someone?  Being in love to me is being blinded to all the bad things about someone, turning the cheek and trying to ignore it. Hoping that you can be the change in that person.

That to me is not real.
That to me is living in a reality that doesn't exist.

The reason this has all been on my mind lately is because people go back in forth so much. And I find myself in the middle of it all with these people I barely know asking me what they should do. When all I want to say to them is "You should talk to someone who believes in love for one, then you need to figure it out for yourself. You already know what you want to do. It is that little feeling you have deep in your heart that is just scratching at you, but the chances are you are ignoring it like the way you ignore the bad things about him." That is what I want to say.

And further more on the topic. If you are "talking" to someone else, or you have a "side line" person, you are obviously not happy, and if you were then you wouldn't find the need to have someone else.

I am not being bitter about anything, I have had my share of side line guys, and when I had them I knew I wasn't happy with my relationship. He didn't treat me the way I thought he should. I couldn't tell him how I felt, and I'm pretty sure the only thing he saw in me was sex.

I guess this rant is just because I have no idea about anything. When a relationship ends you slowly start seeing all the flaws you were blinded to at the time. Then you begin to see someone for who they really were and all of a sudden thats not the person you fell "in love" with. It is someone completely different... Surprise surprise.

Fact of the day: All because of Florida and a silly green lighter.

-Belle